Arsele comes closer, and Arali can see what's coming, wants it so terribly, but...
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity...She closes her eyes and straightens up. She takes the visions, the fantasies, the thousand daydreams of Arsele, but she does not build the wall around her mind as she was trained. Instead, she accepts them. They are part of her, dear to her, but they do not control her.
Inhale to gather strength. Exhale, and the tension leaves her body.
"
No," she says. Calm, even.
For the first time since dinner started, she meets those beautiful blue eyes. The want is still there, but there is a sadness with it. "You are dear to me, Arsele, and I never wanted to hurt you, but I can't do this. I can't
be this for you."