by Moyr Ahaya » Fri Jun 23, 2017 10:18 pm
"You are."
Moyr didn't have the strength to throw a fit or even a decent tantrum. She just looked at Baes with sadness, but decided to explain.
"Don't condescend me, Baes. I know you're smart but I can have my own thoughts in order too. I uphold the same beliefs that I always have. There might not be compassionate, tranquil and friendly enough for you, but I come from a different background than you. I have no recollection of ever being sheltered, of having a sanctuary. No memory of security I can fall back on. My life has been rife with conflict with those who have tried to chain me down, oppress and violate me. And there will always be those, everywhere. I don't care whether they dress blue or red, do or don't have legs. I'll be opposing them until my dying breath or until a time when I'll be powerful enough to keep them at bay. I won't be anyone's toy, ever. And I am not a blind believer in what my Master says. He's been as much help as he's been a disappointment. But this is how I pay for my shot at freedom. This is my path, dear. And you have no convincing argument that would sway me from it. Because what I can get from what you're saying is that you are getting used to living in hypocrisy, nestling in it, with occasional calling them out on their bullshit being a stitch holding your conscience together. What change do you bring about by this? None. It's just for your personal convenience, to stay where you're disturbed the least in pursuing your technical revelries, where you can get a pat on your shoulder for selling your skills away."
She rubbed her eyes, trying to banish tears. Saying this wasn't easy for her, no there was any satisfaction for doing so.
"I have been called out on my ties with you. I don't give a shit, and provide no excuses. I am used to the thought that everything can be taken from me as long as I am weaker than those who want to do it. Except for my desire to be free. And believe me, that one is stronger in a blatantly evil, unforgiving regime than a corrupt, hypocritical one."
Sith | Lethan Twi'lek | Former Smuggler | Shadow | Radical | Subversive | Honorary Fett | ProfileWear: casual, concealing, jungle, or Mandalorian!; Weapon: 'Passion' (shadowsheathed twin-bladed lightsabre), X-30 Lancer, palm stunner, frags; Stuff: commlink, datapad, hand scanner, scramble key, survival kit, stimpacks; Ship: The Bitch, Corellian-Mandalorian hybrid light freighter; Crew: "Gunnie" Wren, co-pilot & T3-X3, maintenance droid; Companions: Virginia, battle droid"You can have only as much liberty as you have the instinct to want and the audacity to take."